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I am so tired
Got to stay awake because there's steps I have to take
I'm more pathetic, more than I've ever been
The older I get the more the good times slip away from me
Trapped in a bubble of my own self-demise
I'm never any fun anymore and I'm half as wise
I sit alone, surrounded by friends staring at holes in the ceiling
wondering why am I like this?
Why am I not interesting?
The beauty of it all if the bombs did fall
No time to say goodbye just an end to it all
No time to say goodbye, just an end to it all

'Cause the dance I dance doesn't have any floor
No platform to take my own personal scores
I'm just alone, staring at stages and back room
Feeling so drained, trying hard not to show it too soon
If this isn't the crowd that I fit into
I'm scared I'm too stuck in my ways to fill the void via another source
Ignoring every bad omen and repeated curse
Pissing moments away not even pissed just to awkward to smile
and keep self judgement away
Everyone's celebrating the life of the dead
If they celebrated the life of the present maybe there would be less dead
I'm stood at the foot of the mountain
still making the first step it's been 8 years and counting
I took a swan dive hoping instead I would fly
and stuck my head in the water
Pretending it's not my fault the I'm under.

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from Drifting Apart Without Drowning, released May 25, 2019

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